pretense

January 6, 2011 pinkhearted

its been days after a new year. no resolutions, maybe some personal ones, but i’d rather keep them at heart. still havent decided on a proper organizer. when i get my hands on a pink one, i’ll make it pinkier, get it organized even further and make it mine. inspirations have been coming in from lyrics and books. and i’m still a queen B. headbands may be last summer for many but not for me. plus, saving up for education ahead, major life decisions to make. also, been doing alot of running, reading and listening to music. work is work but i guess work makes me realise some alone time is needed. then again, i hoped for something else but my heart just ignored it. i wouldnt wish to convey it sometimes.

pretend you’re happy when you’re blue.

it isnt very hard to do.

ironically it is hard. but its a matter of choice and situation. when things get tough and overwhelming, i felt my heart was about to burst, my brains would explode and tears welling up, with heat burning my cheeks and lips quivering. honestly, the heart aches but time still have to pass. and keep passing, waiting for no one. so pretense. yes. it happens on its own.

so many things on my mind, i wished i’d have the willpower to achieve everything that i want but some things are just so far away and intangible, im too afraid to think about it.