dont look back in anger
i’ve been drowning myself with books and music and gossip girls (oh the thought just made me crazy cause i wouldnt mind watching it all over again and again and again!) and bed (because headaches have been too often occuring up at work lately)
headaches hasnt been this bad all my life. usually just once in a while. instead, it happened for 4 days in a row this week. from work to home and even acting up again despite sufficient sleep. worried i am but ive told myself to stop taking panadols. its not good but i cant help it. good thing at home ran out of it or else i’ll be overdose. anyways, gotta check up on it soon if it acts up again. been skipping gym all because of headaches. it sucks. but back to gym after 3 days, it was finally nice to feel loose and sweat again 
been worried about finances. need to cut down on some expenses. even have to give up going floorball today 
on a brighter note, im seeing hafizah today. yay, S and B again, spending time S have been going through a rough time and so is Queen B though S is going through a much more tougher time. Will be there for her.
bac k to finances, have i told you i hate the adult fares? oh come on, its really too much. have they ever thought what its like for a tertiary student to go through a huge and major change to adult fares once they’ve graduated? its unfair! we’re not in the wrong for graduating, we’re waiting for results! so isnt it fair that until results are out and universities have accepted, then we’re charged adult fares accordingly if we’re no longer studying? adult fares are taking every sweat of me from work. ive hardly have enough to spend because ive got so many to spend on travel and food and thank god, im an earlybird, i can pack lunch. or else, im working for nothing!
Just a sidenote, what does it feels like when someone you thought was so dear to you has now become someone you dont even remember what they are anymore?
xoxo,
N
Add a comment January 9, 2011
pretense
its been days after a new year. no resolutions, maybe some personal ones, but i’d rather keep them at heart. still havent decided on a proper organizer. when i get my hands on a pink one, i’ll make it pinkier, get it organized even further and make it mine. inspirations have been coming in from lyrics and books. and i’m still a queen B. headbands may be last summer for many but not for me. plus, saving up for education ahead, major life decisions to make. also, been doing alot of running, reading and listening to music. work is work but i guess work makes me realise some alone time is needed. then again, i hoped for something else but my heart just ignored it. i wouldnt wish to convey it sometimes.
pretend you’re happy when you’re blue.
it isnt very hard to do.
ironically it is hard. but its a matter of choice and situation. when things get tough and overwhelming, i felt my heart was about to burst, my brains would explode and tears welling up, with heat burning my cheeks and lips quivering. honestly, the heart aches but time still have to pass. and keep passing, waiting for no one. so pretense. yes. it happens on its own.
so many things on my mind, i wished i’d have the willpower to achieve everything that i want but some things are just so far away and intangible, im too afraid to think about it.
Add a comment January 6, 2011
